When Ramadan Arrives

I know it has been awhile since I last updated my blog for 2016 this year. Not to mention the last post I did was on a short summary of what I accomplished back in 2015. I guess I'm not doing the justice of being the blogger I wish to be- with procrastination by my side, I hardly believe I would still continue this blog right now. With so many events left behind at this point, I don't know where to start telling all the things I've done over the first half of 2016.

Hopefully I can find the time to write on my blog frequently now and then.

For now, I'm on my 4th day of fasting. Alhamdulillah it's going well so far.

For some reason, I feel as though this year's fasting month flies by so fast, I barely feel as hungry and thirsty as I used to. The weather remains sunny as usual. Some days are cloudy yet I don't find myself counting down the hours to 'buka puasa' time during Maghrib. Maybe it is because I've grown up and started to understand the true meaning behind Ramadan. Maybe I have loss appetite in the food I regularly consume on normal days. But all I know is that Ramadan is the time for me to improve myself physically, mentally and spiritually. It's a major self-cleansing therapy that I hope will bring good results for both present and after life.

Times like these I realized that we are missing out on a lot of important things in our life that should not be regretted later on. By not having to eat and drink for a few hours and lessen the amount of heavy movement, we have a large amount of time to do the things we couldn't do in the other hectic 11 months of the year. Recently I managed to carry out tarawih prayers with my family at home every night and wish to continue it till the end of Ramadan. I'm also making an effort to perform dhuha prayers every morning when I have time to spare and listen to my older sister reciting the Quran.

Initially I set a goal to make this fasting month as a 30-day-weight-loss mission, in hopes I will look much slimmer for Hari Raya, but it never stuck to me afterwards. Soon I'll be living my life doing the same unhealthy routine all over again. I guess our demons got the best of us once this holy month is over.

IT SHOULD NOT BE A PHASE.

That's what I keep telling myself. However, I also am not a girl of my words.
Better fix what's on the inside rather than what's on the outside. Sounds easy but it's harder than you'd think. We got it all wrong about the true purpose of Ramadan.......

This is not just a reminder to others but also a reminder to myself.
Anybody can say all these things, but can they do it?
I'm still learning and hope I can keep up with my practice.

That is all for the time being.

Selamat Berpuasa.

Semoga tahun ini lebih baik daripada sebelumnya dan diredai-Nya. 

Amin.